Surrender It

 
 
 
 

Surrender It~~~

Surrender is an interesting word, with a multitude of meanings. I am using the word surrender to be the embodiment of being in the flow with our body, mind and spirit. It includes the experience of acceptance of what is, what is true. It encompasses the ability to be differentiated, to be your own person.



In 2003, my husband Jim suffered a major stoke. Over the past year, and exacerbated over the past couple of months, his level of functioning has taken a turn. To witness this has been heart-breaking. To support our four adult children over the holiday season as they witnessed this new level was bitter sweet.



As an advocate for ‘surrender to what is’ I have been challenged to walk my talk...and I am now ready to speak about it. Has the process been easy...no! Has it been heart-wrenching...yes! Have I created my own suffering by wanting it to be different...absolutely! Is there a gift here somewhere...I believe so!



As I noticed myself feeling victimized, resentful, fearful, ripped-off, crazy...my body reacted with sensations of tension and chaos. When my thoughts and emotions were on the ‘wrong train of thought’ I experienced deflation of my spirit and my well-being.



As I move towards the heart-ache and acknowledge it from a place of true sadness, I feel comforted. This is a more authentic place for me to feel the truth and to move through the process with acceptance and allow whatever needs to happen happen. I show up for myself and recognize that this experience is indeed a process.



As I write this today, I feel centered and strong. As I surrender to what is, I know that I can handle it from a place of strength. I have a choice to be in control of my own experience and as I continue to go to ‘higher ground’ what will be will be. I ‘remember the resource’ within myself – my embodied strong inner core that will see me through difficult times. I can count on it.



[If you have my book, read chapter six (Remembering the Resource) where I teach the technique to help clients embody their internal resource.] When a resource is embodied (felt and owned in the body) it is much more powerful than an experience of the mind.



If you are struggling with non-acceptance of a situation, I recommend that you become mindful, be with your breath, allow the authentic feeling to wash over you, notice what is happening in your body, shed the tears you need to shed, and surrender to what is - infuse yourself with acceptance of what is. And, of course be gentle with yourself in the process.



p.s. an unbelievable synchronicity!!



As I finished this writing, I felt an intuitive urge to go to the front door, even though I had already received today’s mail. There was a large package with my name on it!! Inside the package was a beautiful pink blanket from my friend and colleague Kim Boyden, who has been aware of my process over the past couple of months. And, guess what the blanket was about ... you guessed it...STRENGTH. I am wrapped up in it as I type. ?



On the blanket is written a number of affirmations on strength. A few of them are:



My mind, body and spirit are strong

I take time each day to rejuvenate and recharge

I draw from a deep well of peace and calm

I breathe in strength and release my fears

I trust my intuition and live a courageous life

and many others in relation to accomplishing goals and following the heart’s deep desires

Written by: Marlene Fields CPCC