I Know What I Know- by Roxie Marie

"Every time you are tempted to react in the same old way, ask if you want to be a prisoner of the past or a pioneer of the future. The past is closed and limited, the future is open and free." ~ Deepak Chopra

I am in a place of wonderment about my own inner process, including my grief and loss. The quote above, by Deepak Chopra, spoke to me today. Things are a little confusing for me to process when there is more than one "old reaction" that shows up at one instant.

My "old reactions" have been a focus of my positive energy work for some time. I have seen amazing results
from my study and application from the principals in "The Course Of Miracles". There have been many ahha moments, from the wisdom of Tolle, Gina Lake, Dyer, the poetry of Gilbran, the Bible, and so many others.
Yes I do feel inspired and connected to my source on a palatable level, and yet...the ego is strong and shows up as "old beliefs with subconscious power". It is at the moment, when I'm most uncomfortable, that the level of deep awareness I pray for; focus on; and sense in my body; shows up to remind me: "I do have a Soul Connection and I do know the answers of my Essence."

I then have the choice to honor "what I know" and proceed no matter what my "ego would fear or critize". This is still a challenge, for I give power away to the external's such as "Will this work for him or her?" Will I be percieved as a less than (blank) person?" or many other inner dialogues and voices.''

For today, I will listen to Carol King and James Taylor in concert on the Today Show and just remember the easy way "I was" back then. I will remember the beauty of all I knew and loved back then, and still do in my heart. I will know that I made choices back then that led to beliefs that developed into numerous automatic reactions.  I was young and new in this life and it was OK that I was naive. It is also ok now that my "old reactions" come from that place sometimes. Even though I am now older and wiser, I will not be perfect in honoring the past while leaving the old reactions behind. I will continue to work on this...

I choose to see the future from my place of awarness now. The pain comes when I try to stay with who or how I was in the past. The future is open and free, as I am now open and aware of how I co-create my life. Old reactions come from a "valid place" but they don't need to be repeated in my current awareness.

I praise my Essence and Source. I give thanks to God's grace and honor that "I know what I know" when I choose to listen.